jus another emo post

im absolutely flooded with uni work atm!
i feel suffocated as if i can't breathe now =(
i don't get how some ppl jus don't stress and are so relaxed! wat the freak is wrong with u??!!!
how do u even manage to sleep at nite with all these things to do??
i can't even sleep nowadays coz i lie in bed worrying how im gonna get everything done =(
im so freaking tired and i jus want to give up but then i think im stupid for thinking that coz some ppl work so hard to get to that certain pt and for me to give it all up so easily its jus stupid and silly. im not motivated anymore..i can't get myself motivated anymore..its jus so hard...i jus sit there thinking...CRAPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP! its not as easy as "jus do it!"
it jus doesn't work like that! you jus don't get it...no one gets it....ARGHHHHHHH!!!!!
i don't even crying 1000L of tears anymore becoz its jus not worth the effort!! GRRRRR!!!!

SOOOOOO wat am i raging about??
WELLLLLLLLLLLLLLL......

i hav an ee test + lab due on tues...im doin the lab atm...but i don't understand anything! im readin the lecture notes and there are like only a few slides on how to do the ADT...SO HOW THE HECK DO OTHER PPL UNDERSTAND WAT TO DO???!!! not even the bk has anything on it and i paid like $100ish FOR IT TO FREAKING HELP ME! NOT EVEN GOOGLE HELPS ME! EVERYTHING JUS FAILS! JUST FAILS!!! **CRIES**

and seeing as tho i hav all these things due on tues, i dont even have monday nite to do most of it becoz i hav to do the freaking maths assignment...sigh...HUGE ASS SIGH!!!!

and wen tues is over...wat i dread doin te most i hav to do...freaking 30% worth of projects courtesy of Webtech! a massive 20% on ur personal site (in which i've barely touched) and 10% on the csse site (I MEAN WHY CAN'T THEY FREAKING DESIGN THEIR OWN SITE INSTEAD OF USING STUDENTS AS GUINEA PIGS TO DO THE WORK FOR THEM! OOO AND GUESS WAT??!! WE'LL GIVE THEM MARKS TO DO IT SO THEY REALLY HAV TO DO IT...FREAKING HELL!!!)
NOT TO MENTION I HAV ANOTHER 20% PROJECT FOR D/S TO DO! and we have to fully program a tree ADT + a report... i mean wat the hell..since wen did programming mean a report attached to it at the end??!!! **Cries**

computer science is aewsome at the beginning until you reach the end wen ur bombarded with like 20%+ projects to complete all right b4 exams -.-

im so freaking screwed **CRIES**

if i make it through this month alive give me a call =( or buy me boxes of tiny teddies so i can binge eat this rage away...

ps i don't think i can do it

xoxox